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Back in the days when Saturday Night Live was actually funny, they did a sketch which I think was called "Dork, Geek, or Spaz?" It was a panel of high school students who would watch as various misfits would come out on stage, then they would decide whether the misfit was a dork, a geek, or a spaz. Kind of like the old TV show What’s My Line? where Dorothy Kilgallen, Fred Allen, Arlene Francis, and Bennett Cerf were replaced by high school snobs. The last contestant to come out was (I think) played by Emilio Estevez, who was a new kid in the school and to all outward appearances was a pretty cool guy. Then, of course, the moderator (if you’re keeping score, John Charles Daly) pulls out the yearbook from his old school and reveals that the kid was the Dungeonmaster of the Dungeons and Dragons Club.
It’s bad enough when other people subject you to this sort of humiliation. It’s far worse when you do it to yourself. Your brain holds memories of everything that’s ever gone on in your life, the good stuff as well as the bad. It’s usually in the dead of night, when you wake up at 3 AM and can’t get back to sleep, that you’re reminded of the really bad stuff…
My stroke damaged an area of my brain and rerouted everything around it so that I could continue to function, and sometimes I think it routed things through the areas in my brain that hold the bad memories of things I did that I’m ashamed of, or things that I was shamed for. On the other hand, I have some really great dreams. Those might be a result of all the stuff I take to keep my blood pressure under control (so I don’t have another stroke), the antidepressant I take (just because), and/or the naproxen sodium I take way too much of to control the pain in my knees.
One things for certain: I’ll never go into politics. There are too many people with too much to blackmail me with.
I’m sure no one will mind my taking a moment to announce that this post #4000 on The Sound of One Hand Typing.
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